Tuesday, June 2, 2009

About dead ends.


Once again I have done it! I have reached yet another dead end. Somehow I have exhausted the limits and I have crashed upon the boundaries. I am not quite sure whose boundaries those are. 

Nevertheless, I feel accomplished. You might ask, why that is? Well, it is simple. Actually, no, it is not simple at all. It is rather complex. In recognizing this as a dead end, I can truly say that, I am not lost. At last, I feel that I have found myself.

In January, I told myself; "this is the year that you will find your way". Although I have found myself at a dead end, seeing myself there has been a source of empowerment. Although I am disappointed, I am empowered. 

Somehow, as I type this small entry, I notice that my dead end has a rather small door. As I type, I realize that it is only today that I have the courage to see a gateway that has always been there, invisible to my fearful and careless eyes.